I've lost my internal motivation. Well, I know it's not GONE...just hiding. It happens sometimes, especially on dreary gray mornings like this one. I don't feel like doing a dang thing.
Y'all ever hear the phrase, "Fake it 'til ya make it"? Simply putting forward a positive attitude can make all the difference. Normally, I'm an extremely optimistic individual. (According to my friends and family, sometime's I'm annoyingly upbeat. Who knew being positive could be a character flaw?) I jest now but a little more than a year ago, I really did lose my motivation and positivity.
I don't know how I ended up in a rut but I did. I certainly didn't have any reason to feel so down. We were all happy and healthy, no truama or drama. Everyday, just going through the motions...get schoolwork completed, tend to the household chores, various appointments and kid sporting events, and so on. Life seemed so monotonous. It happens to everyone now and then but when you're slogging through a period like that, if feels pretty crappy. I did check with my doctor and found that there wasn't a physical reason for me to feel the way I did. I ended up complaining to a good friend of mine who suggested the M-Power Audio Series. I totally baulked the idea. I just needed to get over myself, right?
Needless to say, I couldn't "just get over myself" which really ticked me off and didn't help how I was feeling! Well, I sucked it up and started researching at the library and online. After a few weeks I settled on the M-Power series. It was just the kick in the pants I needed. It's been a wonderful program and I've learned so much. Of course, I had to eat some crow and tell my girl friend, "You're right, I'm wrong. You're smart, I'm dumb." :-) I also thanked her profusely for suggesting the audio series.
I've also learned not to be so hard on myself. I want to be Supermom which would require that I not be human. Sometimes being human sucks but I wouldn't trade it for the world. Being human allows me to make mistakes and learn from them. It allows me to appreciate the joy in my life. If you find yourself in a rut, don't beat yourself up. It's totally counterproductive.
Well, it looks like we might get some sunshine today after all. I'm so ready for Spring! Have a wonderful day, y'all.
Be positive and find your joy.